duh. i tink i had smile the most no. of times today.
it shld acct for my whole lifespan. T.T
im not going to smile anyone!
so for the next few days if you dont see me smiling at u.
pls don't blame me.
i hate to smile for nth. arghs especially when i cant smile at all.
almost suffer a stroke on my face. Plus i think
i really look silly when i smile. zzzZ
someone talk rot behind my back today.
get to heard of it from pris. den got into a quarrel wif her.
simply NO IDEA what she's fedup abt. hello?
i tot i shld be the one who shld be fedup? sigh, forget it.
we said sorry to each other and made up.
just hope that old farking skeleton burn n rot in hell.
dont give me that 'im watching you' look anymore
or i might jus blow and fark the hell out of you. __
n ya i called to c if u're alrite cuz u sounded so sick
in the afternoon. if u're still feeling so juz dun farking
pick up the phone and yell into it as if i did anything wrong to ya.
morever i had told you that i'll call n check on you tonight.
out of concern and tat's what i gotten in return huh?
you noe u simply CANT take care of yourself?
why insist on going to sch when u're still sick,
only to return home after a few hrs? isnt that stupid?
god, maybe i shldnt even had give a damn in the first place.
beside you NEVER listen. if that's the case,
dont ever let me noe when ure sick again can?
i seriously dun c the point. you noe i will get worried.
ALWAYS.
so if u dun wan me to worry, dont tell me anything abt it.
i think other ppl out there deserve my concern more than you do.
wtf is wrong with everyone today?!
the only thing worth mentioning today shld be my mum's call.
she saw my results and seeing how well i done,
she decided to get me a better phone than wat she promised earlier on.
but i will choose one that's not so exp.
i dont wan be a BAI JIA ZI.

dont force me into someone i cant be.

arr. took a day off today.
hmm. temper getting shorter and shorter.
but dey're realli inefficient mah?
sigh. went to pei laopo at sch.
she skipped lesson again. zzz
im going back to work tml le. sigh~

i am the starlight searching for you.

arr.. quite alot of things happen today.
try to name a few.
arrrhhh. today i was much slower than usual.
why?
cause too slack until my actions were abit retarded
forget to put in stuff and take a veri long time to pack 1 ting.
arghs! i dere hitting mosquito 3/4 of the time.
10-10. how long more can i take it ar?
i had declare war with the mosquitos,
those which causes the dengue fever. -.-
bringing insecticides there tml.
arhh. workplace is sure a complicating place wif lotsa politics
guess u'll know why when u go out to the society.
now i noe why ppl say its better to study than to work.
ya. study = no money, work = no life
i guess everything comes with a price.
the choice is yours for you to choose wat u wan. >.<
of course, dere're exceptions.
but its onli if one can learn to be more responsible,
critical of themselve & less to others.
no point gossiping behind ppl's back.
cause dey'll noe, eventually. trust me, its not going to work. :)
juz being a bit more forgiving could make
the world much better for everyone, so why not?
argh.. my body's aching and headache's back
hope its not the dengue fever. >.<

thinking of you..

an old lady fark up my day.
its suppose to be another normal day.
seeing all the cute kids.
dey're cute. but they arent
when dey call me uncle. -.-''' wth?
i went up to dem take off my specs and say
this is kor kor lor! >.<
arghs. wateva.
im trying very hard here now.
sighss.

cant you see?

arrr.. did nth much today lor.
out of nth wake up at 7am.
den check for results.
i cant say it here, cuz someone will noe. =)
went for driving lesson.
took the evaluation.
failed it by 2 points. arr
careless i tink. cause finish the 45min in 10mins
its so darn boring. its free de. try it again nxt time lor.
quite sians after return home.
cause headache again. been having headaches these few days
hope its nth serious. sigh
nth much. tink lidat lor.

what m i asking for?

arrr. went back to sch today.
to finish up the IDs. arr!
i draw the scorpion tag, n omG! so nice!
loLs self-conceited? hahs.
i draw it ytd night around 2-3am.
surf hundred of scorpion pics, hardest is
the tail. have to make it look real,dangerous n stylish
arghs. den the body part i got the idea from YELLOW shop.
glad that my SCO really like it. can be seen from
his expression. wahahha!
but most of the first expression of MOST people
thot i copy from YELLOW shop's logo.
which is so darn not true. onli the body part nia. >.<
but good enuff for me le lar.
for my standard i guess. so 3 cheers for myself =P
yapp.. so went home have lunch with dem..
den pei 'laopo' to slack around cause she dun feel like
attending night class as she's late.
lame excuses. -.-''' sians. last time hor.
den im back here. sighh. quite a gd day afterall
tml results released le. pray hard bah!

miss, misses, missing, missed

dont really know whats going on today.
sighs. slept tru the whole day.. my heart aches.
told huiying abt it and she's willing to be late for her work
to listen to me n my silly nonsense once again.
its comforting to know that someone still care when ur
feeling really down. :)
but i hope i dun have to go to her everytime when im sad,
like treat her as lifejacket or wat.
although i always do. -.-''' sighss
eh i jus ate 2 mouthful of fried rice with extra ingredients:
ANTS. O.o
shldve look before eating.. >.<
change the blog song to Canon in D Minor
gt it frm some webby a sweet,
nice, soothing & sad song. find it abit familiar..
but i cant remember. >.<
m still looking for a website that allows me to upload my own songs
can anyone help? T.T

had a terrible headache that almost kills me
its a bad thing i was still alive today to blog. :)
couldnt slp all night. sigh. am quite dead.
went for driving lesson in the morning.
quite interestingg.
after that was abit sick le so went back home to slp
though still feeling unwell. still went to sch to help out weejian
with his concert thingy. to be an usher.
dey complain its tiring. i tink its ok.
quite a nice concert. most of the songs are abt love n rejection
there are a few nice songs like
Fade Out, Bu Yao Xie Wo An Tu Sheng, August 30th n Secret Sorrow
personal fav shld be Fade Out n Bu Yao Xie Wo An Tu Sheng bah.
both are sad songs.. >.<
went home on cab after dinner. reached mylimit. giddy le.
first time i felt so. doesnt feel very good.
couldnt slp den.. lying on the bed thinking..
alot of things flow tru my mind.
was struggling with these thoughts all night long.
life's full of changes, nth really last forever
dey're inevitable n yet necessary
good n bad at times.
quite saddening,
when ppl like me find it hard to cope with it :)

fade mi outt completely..

waken up by ken this morning, ask me to go kbox.
arghs. actually dun feel like going but promised liao so.. >.<
not a bad trip. felt singing improve abit. ABIT nia.
after that went to np to help weejian cca concert.
song composing club bah.
reached le den he say dont really need me today.
fark him. -'-
so went back to jeff's hse. dq,ken,ham was there too.
played Fatal Frame 2: Crimson Butterfly.
scary game but not as scary as the first.
but fell aslp halfway. too tired i guess.
holidays really sucks to the core.
activities were enough but jus couldnt enjoy it.
why?
i don really know too.
jus feeling lost, empty, devoid of everything.
food lost its taste n such. arrr is that depression?
omG. gotta snap out of it soon. arghs! >.<

devoid of emotions.

arr.. this is gonna be a short entry. >.<
arghs.. went for syf and my juniors gt silver. YEA!!
im really happy abt it. serious.
but at the same time.. tinking abt 2yrs ago.
its a tramatic experience. everyone so dead quiet at bus.
not like dem. cheering,singing and chatting happily.
heart quite torned apart. regrets.
ok im going to make my children join band nxt time
to achieve wat i fail to. hahs! XD
being in a band is what i had nv regretted,
but not working hard for syf is.. nvms.
okok! unity band rocks! continue to rocks on~
will go down n visit u all if have the time bah. =x
i miss my saxophone alot alot alot!

traumatizing reminiscenes..

too long nv blog since my bd le. blog growing spiderweb soon. lols XD
hello~ anyone here? >.<
went job hunting these few days. cant seem to find a suitable one.. promoting/marketing/factory. all do before le..
although the first 2 onli do for 1-2days nia.
i dun like them. tiring and the hardest is the CONVINCING part.
haven reach the level where i can convince other ppl
to buy smth that even i myself wun buy. sighs
i tink that will be in the future onli bah?
hopefully NO! o.o
currently looking for job which have
1. some interaction with human/animals (cute animals i mean)
not machine or watsoever pls.
2. limited traveling/stationary. some moving around is good.
but not too far. (radius within 100m)
3. air-conditioned environment. basic hygiene factor can >.<
thats abt it. recommend me if YOU have any!
althou i reali doubt so. XD
oh ya. went movies wif pris,irene,fanny,cw,serene n ck on 5th April
Miss Congenality 2 (6/10) & House of Fury ( 7/10)
and i bought
'A Series of Unfortunate Events Volume 2 : The Reptile Room'
happy :)

arrrr... in the mood for more bloggin. so blog one xtra entry.
hmm. met grace ytd on my way to buy food.
some silly ger who eat onli 2 or 1 meal a day.
drag her to the longjohnsilver at lot 1 to have dinner
she was having a fever back den so i order a fish platter for her
she didnt like it and i force it down her throat wif a tube. jk >.< size="2">FOR FREE =P
however. was total turnOFFed by the manager
who made us wait 1hr for a less than 5min interview..
she's busy i noe.. but still its not gd to
let ppl wait for smth which isnt worth the wait at all.
there's no right/wrong here. i jus dun LIKE it.
ermm. played Polar Bear wif my buddies at TOWER
our fav hangout. no more fear of police raid. >.< quite a great day. =)

im beginning to understand why..

Part 1
wahhaha. fun siaaa.. celebrated my bd wif my tb10
ermm i mean half of the tb10. >.<
tis time de BBQ I like eat more than wat I helped.
Sense of achievement? NO.
Im trying to lose weight here lehs..
loL! But suan le. Since my bd. Better make full use of it suan le XD
finally we cutting cake at 11.45pm le!
We were told to make wishes.
But den I dun rmb I had make any.
Wishes nv ccome true anyway bahs. XD
hhahas. den stupid irene begin attacking us wif whip cream. arghs!
Cw veri kelians sia.. kana so much. Lucky I zhao faster
Hahas den I go lisiaos pris and others.
Cant really rmb the order. But I cfm last one is serene
Hahas cause I chase her and lisiao her until veri jialats
lolxX! Den after that ck get us some bodyfoam
which we use it like 3-in-1 sia.
Shampoo,bodyfoam and facial foam. XD

Part 2
after washup we went cycling lors. Hahas
den some unfortunate events happen along the way
I shldnt say anything abt it. XD
Hhahas. Den we finally reach esplanade after 1hr 45mins of traveling
Oh ya. We wentt o the national stadium before that. >.<
And something make me unhappy lar.
At esplanade there we saw some disgusting guys. sians
After which starting we play zong ji mi ma lors.
Den pris tio first. Den dey come up wif some stupid dare
The dare involve me can.
Wat kiss the bd boy. Arghs. Paiseh. >.< >.< >.<
First time u noe.!!! LOLLl
Ehh. After which we played a new game. Polar bear.
Seems like a upgrade version of murderer to me.
It was fun lors. Full of deception aand betrayal. Lolss
The last part was the nicest one lor. Me and cw zi xiang can sha.
Den let fanny kan diao us. Haisss!
Den finally abt 5+ lidat we ride back to ecp lors.
We spend abt 1hr on the way back. Much faster le

Part 3
Arghs. Den we went for breakfast and rot like hell dere.
Until the bike shop is opened and we return the bike.
Hahas took taxi home.
After which slp a few hours before going out for movie bah.
Nth much happen as both of us were tired bah I guess.
Hitch is a nice movie. Get me thinking abt many things.
Ya. I tink im quite serious and sure tis time round. Ya.
But.. Wateva…
Anyway thx for the prezzie really like it a lot..
Also thx for going tru the pain to get it for me.
Really appreciate it alot alot alot.
but the surprise was lame. =x
and sorry if tis trip wasn’t veri enjoyable for ya.
It does mean a lot to me though.
Wanted to bring u some place but guess It’s not the right time today.
Maybe in the future bahs.
I noe I reali tink too much into things.
But hope u noe why am I reading so much into things..
I noe it may seems unnecessary or redundant.
well.. nvms. i wun do it anymore le.
im sorry.

time for awakening.