arr.. upload this songgg called 'Lao Shu Ai Da Mi'
sang by a singapore singer who also wanted
to conceal her face like Ou De Yang. -.-
for wat siaaa! >.<
quite a sweet voice, song also very sweet. >.<
dedicated to you only.

sweet talk and honey words it may seems to be,
words from the bottom of my heart they truly are.

i jus felt so bloody useless when ppl come to me
and i jus cant do any single damn thing to help dem.
it aint the old me anymore.
the old me who could cheer u up,
help you solve your problems or
make you feel better.
'i' dont exist anymore.
dead.
on the day where words were spoken so long ago.
those words so sharp, tone so cold n
voice dat was familiar no more.
no point believing in me now,
i cant help anyone anymore.

you're the one im so sure of,
im willing to lay down my life for you.

freed myself from the guilt i guess.
thx to you,
your right but not totally.
still you let me see myself clearer
i think i know what to do when this happens again.

your smile gave me the courage.

today sc was fun. i was late for an hr plus. arghs
i forgot my ID too. >.<
met rider on the way to sch. he's frm BIT
den today is freaking hot lar. we went frm station to station
to play games and cheer.
everything was dull at first but with the help from
one of my freshies~ sing ye! everything perk up at last
hahas. and when we are back at the room right
all of us went crazy can. we all damn high lors.
all the SCOs, SBs, SCs and Freshies
we cheer alot and mess around
haha we took off our SCO, Leong Wai de shorts XD
laugh like one kind mannn. sibei high ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
god! if that was how we were during the orientation
we cfm the most HIGHest and most united team lors!
after that went to the convention hall and watch the dances
spain one was simple and really good can.
nxt is US but i tot the dance was abit 'childish' in some way.
but your dance was really gd can. >.<
still gt somemore gd de.. but i duno which grp dey from? XD
our dance is messy at first but slightly better at the back
dey need more confidence and practise bah i tot. =P
yea.. and den i felt i lied alot today.
as in i dun dare to tell pris wat im unhappy abt her.
crap. i used to be a straightforward guy in the past.
now i had to lie to cover up for smth that i dun dare to say le
wtf is wrong wif me?
im just so so so not myself. crap
is this wat u call hyporcrite?
i felt really bad can?
am i right for doing this?
arghssssssssssssssss.
maybe im thinking far too much.
ffffarkkkkkkkkkkk

am i being silly trying to hold on to things thats never meant to be?

arghs. cant believe im still bloggin at this time.
i left exactly 4hrs 49mins of slp onli can. >.<
gotta wake up at 6am tml!
i wore my new outfit to sc today!
too bad someone din get to see it. XD
3 gd and 1 negative comments.
i will continue to improve my fashion sense de >.<
SC is quite tiring today and everyone is feeling very low.
we went back n fro to get materials for dem.
clementi --> beautyworld --> back to sch X 2
its raining all day long and we are quite drenched.
its still better than hot sunny day i guess. >.<
we help decorating but i guess we din do much.
regret not coming back earlier,
we could have make our decoration nicer!
im having more confidence in my art now =P
den found out me, cw and fanny are the senior buddy lor
half happy half sad lar. loL~ >.<
its never my wish to make u feel sad/bad/angry.
i've always been trying to maintain gd r/s wif my friends
and tis is only the 1st time i felt i was unable to do so.
till now, i still feel you're the one who pushes ur luck too far.
its obvious sometimes i dont like wat u say and
i had shown so by remaining in silence.
im already trying to be veri nice and tolerating.
what else do you want seriously?
if u tot im mean to you, u're wrong.
u haven seen the real mean side of me
and u definitly wouldnt wanna have a taste of it.
of course. i wouldnt want to do that to u.
not to anyone i hope. >.<
perhaps u shld be more critical to urself
and less to other ppl!
enough of it. >.<
bloggin halfway den a stupid sms come
so i reply one stupid de also~ =X
hope tml BAOC will be fun for everyone! ^0^

what matter most now to me is your smile..
nth's more impt than it. >.<

went kbox. discover a new nice song
Ni Zou Le by Li Sheng Jie. i tink easy for me to sing =P
after that went ham hse and play the new starwars game!
alot of spoilers ar. >.<
play awhile den let wj dey all play le.
went to slp and overslept -.-'''
rush to orchard to catch Amityville Horror. =P
but im not the latest one. hah
den got one stupid surveyor, tot im 25yrs old
crraapppp can? someone still can laugh lors. T.T
Amityville Horrow is like 3/5stars nia. >.< weekday show!
after that went to have burger king. full lors.
den some stupid things happen lor.
made me sleek of alcohol when i got home.
im still not quite convinced with wat u said.
if im right, jus make it clear and i will go away,
so everyone can be happy.
these are just wat im feeling back den. =)
who's feeling what,
what's being done,
just forget all abt it,
blame it on my oversensitivity instead.
i cant get it right unless u tell me so
but im still trying hard.
i shld be the one who apologise afterall. sorry.
tml not going to sc, going town with laopo~ XD

tears you cant see from me..
pain you cant feel from me..
dey're nothing to me.

arr.. went abit drunk ytd..
bought Absolut Vodka Blue !
den mix it wif sprite~
i dun reali like it though.
i prefer it plain! ^0^
arr.. laopo went to fetch me frm work ytd.
too bad cw din get to see her. >.<
went to have mac and den started drinking lors.
dey drink too fast n got drunk fast too.
i was the only ok one though
when i reach home.. im pretty dead.
sigh. dun tink too much when u're drinking
or else u will be unable to tink veri soon.
had quite enuff of pris.
she's getting annoying i guess.
well. i duno lars. >.<

i longed for u to smile on mi..

hmm. raining in the morning.
suppose to be refreshing..
but feeling real down. sigh
today tolerance level damn low.
attp to pris 3 times.
she juz talk too much smtimes
and i decide not to hold back my frustration,
jus for today, i hope.
fanny say when im angry/frustrated,
i lost my cool and the ability to judge.
i guess is becuz i dun like to be fake.
im angry and im going to show it.
when im feeling down, infact it apply to all times.
when u done smth reali stupid or wrong, tat anger me
i wun hesitate to run u down.
i dun like to hide behind ppl's back
to curse dem.
but dey're always exception can.
sigh..
i just cant seem to let go..
although i knew its impossible.
dare not to face up to reality?
i dont know.

streaming tears that you can't see.

arr. slacked tru the whole day.
went hougang mall and eat kfc..
took 2hrs in total.
din feel guilty at all. sigh
meet up wif huiting on the way back
talked quite alot.
ok bah.. she said im trying to be simple
and that's why i appear to be a complicated person.
sounds ironic but wat she said is very true.
trying to make the world simple for the others..
but at the same time im making things difficult for myself
i wonder how many people actually understand that?
well. dun have high hopes for it.

am i being too naive?

arr.. today not a veri gd day.
wj got kicked out frm superstar. sigh.
stagefright. he performance was not even
up to 10% of his usual standard. >.<
was worried sick for him when he's onstage
and den sad for him throughout the whole day.
guess thats wat true friends do for each other.
went to kbox, sux. guess everyone was feeling down.
den watch naruto at dq hse.
and returned home.
quite disappointed to see nth on the msn.
dont think had to say why.
its my problem.

im not on the list.

weeet! finally get out of the house today le.
i slpt tru ytd basically. jus eat & slp.
too tired i guess. arghs!
den wake up at 7am. to sms the ben zhu.
ask her enjoy herself. got the msg rdy ytd le.
den today like send it when im jus subconsciously awake.
so quite shock when i got the reply. o.O
hmm. den went to had lunch wif jason n dq.
got 2 comics. Death Note n FMA! nice!
after tat meet up wif ken and we accp him go defer army
before going to ikea without jason.
first time shop for furniture.
arghs so frustrated when i saw so many nice things
and yet i cant have dem in my room. T.T
we talk abt our future hse as we shop tru.
ken want a small cosy hse but dq and me want a big spacious hse.
i wish to have a small bar at home where
i can entertain my guest wif alcohol beverages~
and ken wanted a well-equipped kitchen as he's a chef mah.
tink have to pick up some skills frm him le. =P
hais. still long lorrr. i still nd to find a nu zu ren for the house. >.<
hmm after that bought 2 glass wall mounted shelve
before going home. went out cut hair den join parents for dinner.
tml returning to work le. arghs!!!

im missing you.. >.<

bloody hell lor.
why all the new cellphones these days
are so Uuuuglyyyy. -.-'''
i know i said i wan to change a new hp
very long ago.
but look at them. they suck ok? T_T
funny thing is that i still have ppl coming to me
and flaunt their cellphone. -_-
it got no style, beauty, cool function
or any other thing worth mentioning.
no offence, i noe u're happy wif ur new cellphone.
but seriously, its ugly.
at least thats how i look at it.
and if i do look at it in this way,
that mean most people will tink so too.
so, dont go around and embarrass urself.
i know u r happy being a CHEAP guy
supported by ur GF.
not that im jealous, just disgusted by u
living off a girl and yet keep flaunting around.
u simply dun have any pride nor dignity of a guy.
u r a shame to us. sigh~
feel so sorry for ur parents.
im not going to hold back any comments
of u anymore. i'll jus say it infront of u. =P

im missing you.. >.<

5am n im still bleeding.
bloody.
bleed me to death den.
it juz cant seem to stop,
the bleeding.
im off to bed.

bleed out.

today slack tru all the way can?
put so many ppl dere i cant do anyting. sigh
zzz. im not someone who like to slack.
me hardworking de loH! =x
but nvm.. i learned some valuable things as
i went around helping out wif those promoters.
gain some knowledge abt appliances and ways
to handle nasty customers.
tml is the last day of work. quite happy? sigh.
felt smth was missing from my life.
helpless & lost.
i shld be born more dumb. >.<

i dun want to live as if i live for anything except myself..