i've tried my best,
but i can't really be some1
that i cannot be.
i'm always the one bound to be hurt,
i can't explain why things would turn
out this way everytime when
i'm serious with smth.
ya i really gave up this time le.

my heart would never be whole again.

craps,
application for the competition
got revoked!!! zzzz
damn farkupz.
ARGHHHHHS
sigh.
waste of my time.
hais.
feeling quite down now,
maybe i shld stop
deluding myself.
ya, i shld. >.<

i swear i would end this once & for all.

farking tired today.
zzz. had 5 long hours of dotas training.
long time nv have this experience
of chionging a game for competition with my buddies
it felt good eventually.
but being the weakest in them
really puts me in alot of stress.
had jus started playing this game 1-2mths
only on weekends and such.
and they were all professionals now
who stands a veri gd chance in winning the compy.
trying to catch up with their standards now
is quite impossible. -_-'''
they could see how tensed am i during today's game.
though i played 2 separate match with dem
i won all 2! quite satisfied with my performance today!
thanks to their assurance that i wun be a burden to dem
i somehow got back some confidence.
now is jus perfecting my skills,reaction & thinking skills.
GODLIKEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!

it doesn't seem real to me at all

weeeeeeeeeeet!
this is my god daughter!

isnt she cute? =x

*blehssss!

i adore her! XD

arr! the embarassing thinggg.
hmm i decided to keep it to myself.
lols! not telling anyone.
heh. went to watch movie with xin!
hah! guess what the movie is?!
its Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire!!!
thx to amanda, we manage to get 2 tickets to the sneaks!
arhhhhhhhh! but much to our dismay...
its quite disappointing. >.<
cho chang is ugly,
krum looks like a barbarian to me
and dumbledore is really weird in this movie.
not like himself -.-'''
furthurmore alot of plots is cut off. sigh!
the only nice & touching part is where cedric diggery die. >.<
all in all the movie is quite bad,
but luckily there's xin with me,
which sorta like lifted things up! =X
thanks

so what is it that bind my heart to yours..

hahaha. had great fun during these 2 days.
kinda like play until too crazy le
even tutorial also nv go. arghs!
i shall blog abt the first day. XD
finally went out wif my pet hamster!
there are others who came along too!
weejian, yihong and huiting!
actually we plan to watch movie one.
Just Like Heaven!
but den tickets are SOLD OUT. zzz
den the stupid hamster of mine nv tell me.
hai me take cab go down.
7 dollars loh! zzz
ya den went there got a shock of my life,
saw weejian wearing a cap -.-'''
i was like 'EEKS POSER! u suck in caps!'
and try to make a cross wif my finger.
damn i was mean! XD
then i made them buy fanny's present with me
its a heart bracelet with her name on it.

a gift from me and ben zhu! ^0^
haha after we went to some place
and have nasi lemak. its not badd
but hamster complaining! well nvm abt her! >.<

just den hamster took out the Unity yearbook

and scare the shit out of weejian

when he saw his kiddy sec1 & 2 photos in it.

omg, it was hilarious watching his expressions. XD

den we begin remininsing the past

the stupid things we all did, it was GOD LIKE.

scolding teachers, get into fights, tearing each other txtbook

being chase by PRETTY GIRLS in the sch wif a scissors on their hand

destroying others O level artworks and lots more

believe me, these are experience

that u can nv get it outside of unity secondary school.

they are common memories shared by the pioneers n

WE ARE PROUD OF IT! =X

we have decided to organise a chalet in the late dec

for the pioneers of unity.

any1 interested to help pls msg me! =X

haha oh ya, den we went back home and

took lotsa pictures on the mrt. den dey say they wanted to booze at my hse, arghs. we drink until late 3am!

i break wj record by holding 3 cups of Chivas!

XD however, the nightmare came in the morning. i

shall elaborate later on that.

damn it was embarassing. =X

different worlds you say,

hohoho! due to the overwhelming demand
(ignoring the fact that there's only 2 ppl, XD)
of request for me to update my blog, i shall BLOG. XD
but be warned,
this is going to be an extremely
unpleasant post~!
if u are looking for happy chirpy post
please go elsewhere!!! loL! im exaggerating. >.<
arghs went to the foodfair ytd wif sylvia
and her monstrous sisters. T.T
it was a terrible experience!
damn bad lar! the wupo and the xiao wupo
arghs! the xiao wupo more terrible than wupo
keep saying me stupid for mistaking a real edible duck
for a plastic duck! -.-''''''''''''''
god, the duck really look plastic can. loL!!
i was somehow shocked when the stall tender deliver my order.
i was like O.O for a split second. =X
den i turn around and ask dem
plastic duck?! O.o'''
and dey laugh! -.-'''
after that dey keep saying in the train lahs
liew! but the xiao mei damn funny lars
in the end she tot that was a chicken lo. -.-''''
worst than me! let me shoot until >.but she's really a funny kid! thanks to her,
the atmosphere is lifted.
cause starting i dun realli dare to talk to wupo. *shy XD
den i hide behind sylvia. hahaah
very fun ar.
and its nice to see them teasing eeach other
makes me feel that having bros & sis is so so so fun
and great.
lol! but i dont think i could ever get to their level.
really envy them alots. XD
maybe nxt time i have my own children (hopefully)
i would be able to raise them up like this too. ^0^

ohana means family

ahahahah back from chalet
the almost craziest chalet i ever had. XD
too bad we cant have fun at escape and www. >.<
else it would be crazy. arghs
i need to confess!
i drink n smoke! omG! so bad for health!
tsk tsk. no more cigarettes for me le.
nonononononono!
oh ya! i almost use a vodka bottle
and smash an angmoh head
god. im so god damn evil. -.-'''
had a bit too much of booze.
i shld've been more rationale.
i wouldnt do it again.
thx to all my friends who manage to stop me in time.

i've seen the worst side of me.. yet?