went to ecp today,
meet up with sue
and then pris at bugis,
finally cw and shawn at white sands
walk around trying to get to pasir ris park
i tot they were saying another one,
almost brought them to the wrong place.
arr! cw took us to the wrong place first. >.<
weather is damn hot and everyone's sweating
but i got used to it after awhile,
i got high endurance against heat. =)
reach there and the bloody sc ppl talk to cw
in a veri unfriendly tone.
if i were cw, i would have !@#$%^& him.
ya and we were 'forced' to stay there
until the whole 'event' ends. -.-'''
were quite leftout there cause we came pretty late.
everyone's enjoying but cw dey all seem -_-
mood already not good in the first place le,
and i got so pissed over it
when they keep complaining abt the weather and stuff.
hello, i didnt came all the way frm cck to pasir ris
jus to hear u ppl talk abt the weather. zzz
suan le bah, it was my choice to go anyway. sigh >.<
after that they went to watch myth
catch a cab and drop me at ps
cause im joining my friends for midnight show later.
went home alone.
but jason called and i went to hamster house.
his gf were there and i have fun suaning him tog wif his gf.
im evil huh? lols
order mac and played a game of dota,
but lost the game. >.<
first time playing and that jason make me use a lousy char lar,
bad firsthand experience loh
nvm that game seems interesting so im gonna play it! =)
after that watched 'The Myth'
i think its quite a nice show,
but wasnt concentrating on it.
mind drifted off abit. >.<
watched abt 80% of the show lar.
after that went home early loh.
hmmm.. all these days was trying hard to occupy my time
so i wont be thinking of things all the time.
i hate my life now,
i hope it could be over soon somehow.
ya no nd to act happy even when im not.
i'm lost again ar. T_T

let time proves everything

lotsa things have changed
since a few days ago,
lost many things, hmm...
it aint mine in the first place anyway.
huiying is right?
the biggest problem with me
is that i'm too good to people?
question mark. question mark. >.<
it causes alot of misunderstandings
and wasted tons of time for people around me.
am i wrong all along?
maybe i shouldnt be good to people around me at all. -.-'''
so that i wouldnt felt this way then,
i wanted to clear things up
but i hope things do end up in another way
not like this, that's not what i want.
doesnt feel good at all. dots
arghs, i dont know what i want at all.
ya and it hurts to hear
' what can we talk about xcept for sch stuff '
from you
since when we could talk abt sch stuff only?!
zzz pessimism in the middle of the night. -.-'''
i can be so wrong with things at times,
that's why i need lots of assurance.
maybe the best is to shut down
and care abt nth in the world. -.-'''
complain complain complain all i do is complain.
i find myself such a pain in the neck sometimes
i shld go to slp now. yawns >.<
i think i'm going to lose more things soon,
bad omen. sighz

drifting drifting drifting

i dont like my attachment job.
banking.
crap tot it will be good.
sigh, it suck like one kind la.
all i do is read, compare, calculate
and making everything is correct.
and then sign -.-''''
i sign abt 100+ times over these 2 days le bah.
there's no need to use your brain at all. -.-'''
i feel just like a machine. sigh.
though i have a 3ghz, & 512mb ram desktop infront of me.
i can't play games!!!
zzz half of the time i'm slacking =.=
i slacked 3+hrs ytd,
today was 2+ hrs.
shorten because i look for things to do myself. duh
if only i can play some games
in the desktop during my freetime. T.T
oh ya, my supervisor name vvery cute,
call xiao ming! ^0^ but he dunwan me call him tat
LOL me also donwan. act cute sia.
i call him tay. 'la tay'~
nxt time call him 'la koppi' >.<
he damn lame lar, always see me finish work so fast
always smile smile ask me relax dont kanchiong -.-'''
and they enjoy giving me lotsa work 1hr before lunchbreak
and before going home -.-'''
i couldn't finish it ytd cause was still abit new,
today i finish it much faster!
but come back alot of mistake,
ehh! small mistake ar,
jus some part never sign
not me forget loh, is they never say -.-'''
boring boring boring.
given my level of intelligence,
i shouldnt be doing all these work lars
i feel like a machine -.-'''
i should be out there working on projects
and proposals.
crap cant believe they are missing out
such a remarkable talent like me -.-'''
arghs! today was late for work and took a cab
20bucks lo and that bloody uncle drop me at wrong place
in the end have to ask for direction and knows what,
a kum gong security tell me Octagon is at Tiong Bahru. -.-'''
sian diaos, depend on myself better.
finally found the way and ran there. sigh
this is not the life for me at all
maybe i shouldnt take business,
should take programming so i can
design games in the future. zzz
but i wouldnt have met you then.
sigh, hope they will give me better things to do tml.
praysssss

love is changing for someone you love, is that true?

killer paper, IEF CLEARED
but its kinda tough!
the marks allocation is weird
2 main difference for 15marks
dont know how to crap
but i'm glad that i hold on to the last.
hope i pass. *prays
hais! miss secondary school life.
more funnn~ more real~ more relax~
maybe i got more friends back there
nono, should be i'm more click with the ppl bah.
now in poly, everything's difference
there're not much ppl
who u can choose to make friends with
and u have to put up with ppl u dont really like -.-'''
if it was me in the past,
i would have suan and yell at the person XD
but! i still make some really gd friends~
just too bad we don't have much chance to hangout tog
sighh!
one day i should try and name all my good friends
who leave their names in my heart. XD
now the JCians are having A level prelims
and the sec sch ppl having O level prelims too!
wish them luck!
haha and i saw yiru studying at NP library
on friday! hahah! had lotsa fun suaning her! =X
yiru, i shall give you a warm welcome to NP nxt year
WAHAHAH! *evil
jus kidding duh!
jiaji,grace,yiru,singyee,mel&rach!
jiayous!
oh craps!!!!
jus heard my bro say that
he's going to Hong Kong Disneyland
at the end of this year. -.-'''
going with his GF
wth! act romantic nia. XD
arghs! i so wanna go too.
i'm a BIG fan of Disney ar!
LOL childish i know LOL
but i still wanna go -.-'''
not fair lar wow kaos!
nvmmmm i so swear that
i gonna go travelling on my own one day
and its not JUST MALAYSIA k?!!
somewhere farrr!
with my friends or you~
shall save up now!
oh ya! that means he will be away from home.
LOL room for myself again. SHIOK!

close to your heart

arghs! ec paper today,
was ok not as bad as pmarketing.
phew! =.=
slp hardly an hour ytd
couldnt slp in the night -.-'''
close eyes all is EC and you.
LOL! then grace suddenly msg me
tell me she mind block. -.-'''
she freaked out and make me freak out also
still forget to bring entry proof and want me
go her house take, lol in the end no nd le.
she decide to resign to fate and take scolding! XD
and hmm.. its a different feeling looking at you today.
hmm.. i like that feeling. >.<

it's a battle half-won

trust or betrayal
love or deception
hell or heaven
only one line between. >.<
this serves as a reminder to everyone! =x
ahhh!!! study EC ar!!! jiayous!

the rain that brings you closer to me..

tml is my first paper,
principals of marketing!
the paper dat i dreaded most. loL!
it used to be one of my confident subject
but the marks i get for the ct is disappointing -.-'''
i suspect the way of marking is wrong somehow. =/
my tutor suck lar, freaking robert.
he's can't teach at all. XD
those who attend his lect or tutorial
will agree with me. right?! >.<
oh ya! he gave me low participation marks
for slping in class cause of headache. -.-'''
i would nv forget that!
i shall take a break before
studying again. LOL! XD

i never want to be the old me again. >.<

today went to xiaoting hse to study ief.
wasnt very successful
the chapters behind are too complicated,
but still manage to clear some doubts. >.<
ya, and it hurts to see you like this.
are you sure that you're happy this way?
i wishh i could help,
but no one could help you
unless you are willing to help yourself.
what exactly happen?

what could have brought tears to your eyes, again?

am already trying very hard le.
ya, still it doesnt work out somehow.
i'm losing myself, changing.
im not who i used to be anymore,
that brat who yell, throw temper and do nth all day long.
but now i wan to be the brat that makes
you smile, make you laugh, make you happy
like all it used to be in the past.
can i move back?
no, i can't and i wont.
i won't grow if i stop here.
i could only move forward now.
i believe that somehow, in my way,
i would ffind a balance between these 2 diff me.
im not doing all this entirely for you
however, it does make up most of the reason.
not sure when will i be able to do it,
meanwhile i just want to stay by your side.
so.. put up with this stupid me now.

till the end..

sometimes i just dont know what i wan
and dont know what i wan to do.
im tired of guessing what ppl
want to hear frm me smtime.
actually there's no need for it,
but i would say the wrong stuff at the wrong time.
i just want to be the perfect guy,
ya.. easier said to be done.
i'm really a dumb guy.
maybe i shld jus be myself,
but which is the real me?

what am i doing all these for..?

its weird sometime when u have
done absolutely nth wrong and ur
mum jus keep nagging at you.
crap isnt it?
its jus tiring listen to her crap abt so many things
in the hse and how issit that its hampering
her in doing the hsehold chores. sick. o.o'''
duh as if it was my things thats piling up the hse -.-'''
its all my bro's, my sis and my MUM things thats piling up the hse
look. my clothes take up barely 1/4 of the closet.
i share it wif my bro -.-'''
and she's complaining that i got too many clothes.
crazy.
all my stuff tat's lying around in the hse are my txtbk
and my study materials. wtf if u dun wan dem to be lying
around the hse den u better get me a cupboard or wat duh.
unless u want me to quit sch. really is wat the f***
all she does is crap to me,
instead to my bros and sis.
why?
cause i'm simply such a gd listener
and i wouldnt yell back at her. ^0^
ya, but now i got a study table and 2 new shelves!
excited!
but i gotta wait after exams before i can put my things up.
lotsa packing to be done. -.-'''
i have to get some formal wear. arghs. not enuff time. hais
ya! and i'm desperate to get rid of a comic
Celestial Zone , lousy comic drawn by a singaporean.
i must be out of my mind to buy it in the first place.
lousy story plot, messy fighting scene and lousy ending.
overpriced too. 6.50 for crapstuff.
u may tink otherwise but tis is my opinion.
its taking up space in my hse.
i tink i will give it away or jus throw it away.
ermm or is there a place to resell comics de? >.<
arghs. back to studying. starting aaa!

between you and me..

i dont mind being make used of,
im actually ok with it.
but pls do it in a more discreet way
and make it less obvious. O.o
as, if its obvious and i couldnt say anything abt it
just because i dont want to hurt u,
i think i would look very dumb to u.
so if u still wan ur face,
please do a better job in it.
just state ur ideas clear,
i wouldnt despise u of that
but now, i don't like to talk to u anymore. >.<
ehh im not blogging for anyone to see
so dont start to have wrong ideas and
anyhow think wor.
the person i saying wouldnt be looking at my blog bah?
well. couldnt be bothered.

im putting my words in a very nice but offensive way.

arghs! spend too much time on ief!
realise i might not have time for the other subs!
i'm dead i'm dead!
must jiayous le!

what a better man should do.