arghsssssssssssss!
i'm so gekkkkkkkkkk larhs
arghs
can freaking read 2 qns wrongly
for my business law exam.
arghs!
damn!
cant get A le.
either a C or a B
tian arhhhhh!
why me so blur!
i want go bang wall le larhs!

化悲愤为力量！！

tian arhs!
simply lotsa things that i want to do
hurhur.
but i always say say nia,
in the end always nv go do.
arghs!
this time really must le!
nowadays keep reminded of the past,
thinking how good the pri & sch days is.
tsk tsk.
its not right!
rather than remininscing the past,
should treasure the present!
lols
i toking rubbish again le. >.<
really hope to get myself out of the vicious cycle
i dont want to keep myself in that kinda
saddening thinking,
troubled by the same old problems.
not sure whether can i get rid of those problems
but i will try my best this time.
i learn a lot bah.
somethings may not be up to my control
ppl's thinking,
whether they like you anot,
whether they hate you anot,
but at least i get to choose what i wanna do.
i have regret once, deeply regret.
cause alot of trouble. sigh!
anyway me is still me,
accept me for who i am!

i just want to hold you close before your gone again.

with 'much' effort~
i finally finished agency law yesterday night
progression have been really slow.
sigh! just dont wish to study
but i know i had to. -.-'''
where's my determination that i had earlier on.
i always back out in the last minute. >.<
typical aries arh?
never finished their unfinished business. T_T
and seriously its annoying to
hear ppl so freaking fake,
kept bragging that they haven't been studying,
only started at the last minute
and able to do all the qns. -.-'''
i thought this is a damn old silly thing to brag abt
what're you trying to prove?
c'mone, your not that smart at all
so stop acting like one. -.-'''
we all knew you study like an ass behind our back.
grow up please. >.<
i only seen people doing it at the pri
and at most the secondary level. not POLYTECHNIC
you actually look more like an idiot to us. XD
arghssss! and seriously i think i really desire attention.
typical aries again. -.-'''
when people dont give me the attention i want
i will be annoyed but i wont be an attention seeker
its either i earn it myself or i walk away.
this is me, be it in family, friends, love etc.
i done a personality test in school before
erm not those cheapskate test u found in internet
its actually a firm that really give
professional personality test, cool huh? XD
i still remember i aways belong to the
rare category in my level everytime
i'm one of the few 'Ds' which means Dominant?
i'm one of the very few who have 3 personality type (DIC)
i'm the only one in my level with same
personality traits throughout all situations?
which means i behave all the same
at work, at home or at leisure.
that is really very rare. -.-'''
hahahha! aint i special? ^0^
however, though i 'blessed' with these traits,
its not going to make a difference
if i dont have the real capability
or didn't put in any hard work.
oh anyway
D = leadership, dominant etc etc
I = interpersonal skills, people who like to talk alot.
C = THINKERS
alriteeee!
enough of crapping i should go bath
and start studying! lalala

you never know what you had done wrong until someone tells you.

arghhhssss!
i've not been studying really well these few days
hais! guess last min studying really suckssss
starting early let u rest play and study at the same time
why couldn't i start early~
that would save me alot of agony. >.< arghssss!
forget it ok let me report my progression now!! >.<
fmgt = 80% paper due tml
blaw = 60% monday
hrm = 0 % (can you believe it -.-''') wed
cma = 50% friday
i'm such a slacker!!!
hope that the 2 days in between break is enough
for me to study! sigh!
anyway seems like every ppl is not studying hrm
until blaw has finished. =/
hahaha shld be every slacker! XD
well~ i need to be more determined! T_T
today chiong fmgt all the way! must finish the 3 papers!
gd luck to me! weeeeeeeeeeet

the heart returns to where it belongs..

arghs!!! im frantically
refreshing back and fro now
in the damn BBDC website!
jus to get an early test date!
crap! this morning when i woke up
and saw an 4/5/06 slot 8.45am
i SPRING UP!
YEA! i mean really SPRING UP!
den i rubbed my eyes refresh the page again
bang the wall several time to make sure
i aint dreaming or wat!
i was like 'MUM! GIVE ME MY 300 BUCKS'
i gonna chiong down to bbdc in a cab!!!
so without brushing teeth
without styling my hair [im kiddin]
i rush out only to wait around 10mins for cab!
AARGHHHHHS!
thank god that the cab driver is a
professional drifter
and i reach there in less than 5mins. XD
im not kidding! really i was looking at the cab clock
HHAHA it was den i realise i din even bring my hp out
see how crazy i am for driving ar?! XD
so i went to the counter request for a queue ticket
and that bloody counter girl
refuse to give me the ticket
unless i go to the other counter
and fill up the topup slip. -.-'''
damn its so empty over there
why cant u let me get the queue slip first. -.-'''
frustrated i went over and filled in my particulars
wrote the amt wrongly
*CRUSHed, THROW into the rubbish bin!
and i finally get the queue slip!!! XD
i was the first and greeted by the usual
friendly counter girl that i knew. whhahaha
she handle my transaction in a flash
and YES! im rdy to book my test date!
i sorta walk + run to the computer terminal
i sit down with a smirk on my face.
i knew im going to get the test date
after looking at how deserted bbdc is at that time! XD
finally.............
i log in, select the months date and year.
AND TO MY HORROR
THAT PARTICULAR SLOT IS GONE!
DAMN!!!! T_T tears stream down my pretty face
and i tried to fight back my tears~ [jus kidding]
i refused to submit to my fate
and cont to refreshhh for like 5mins there like an idiot
until i was like ARGHS!!! FORGET IT! F***
SUPER BAD LUCK
rush so much in the end test slot gone. -.-'''
almost want to smash the com.
damn disappointed. >.<
hais~ nvm! im gonna spend the rest of my
days camping for test dates. waahhhaha!
BLEH but now i have to study first >.<
im sure if i study and be a good boy
Sister lady luck would be impressed with my
good behaviour and gave me an ideal test date! XD
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! im excited! WHAHAHA
but im not gonna tell anyone abt my test date
one day im jus going to appear infront of you
with my car and TADA~!
surprise surprise surprise!
lols. alrite im insane to a certain extend now
i admit! arghs! >.<
alrite i gonna be a good boy to
sister ladyluck now and study!
back only at 2.30pm to check my test dates
wish me luck. =P

terrible headache...

i hate to have too many worries
cause i will have headaches arh! T_T
i pity my poor head & brain.
have to memorise so many things just for exams
and den just to forget all about them
as soon as the exams ends. -.-'''
i know this is not the right way of 'learning',
i did try to rmb them
but its just quite impossible. T.T
maybe its true that what is worth to be remembered,
or rather to say what is important to you,
would stays in you no matter how much
you try to get them out of your mind.
the first time u wet ur pants?
the first time u flunk ur exam?
the first time u actually kissed someone
& ur first love perhaps?
they arent 'important' to u at all
but yet they stayed as a part in u. >.<
[ehhh! i haven't 'commit' the first 2 acts]
i guess somehow its your heart that decides
what should stays and what should leave. =/
i mean 'heart' as in a part of the brain functionality
lols! so i guess no one would really remember
PVA = PMT (PVIFA) or
FVA = PMT (FVIFA)
>.<''' arghs!
i guess i'm getting too crappy le
i was suppose to sound sentimental. -.-
sigh
maybe i'm quite a failure in everything i do
and thats why i have never really succeed in anything i do
hmmm
a few moments ago
i still got a feeling that worries are overwhelming me
that im not really quite myself anymore.
i dont like this feeling.
but it dissipates now. >.<
fond memories are what that keeps u
alive and kick bah? hahaha
ok larhs go back study le. bleh

would you be the one to create fond memories with me?

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!
i got bored and i happen to come across
this johari's window test!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=zhanhong
everyone please help me do this test!
your help is very much appreciated. XD
study spreeeeee!

study study study!

count down to exams
12 days. exactly 1 day before exams
this sem really slack dao bu xiang hua. XD
dono what am i studying at all.
alrite with common test experience.
i shld start with
FMGT
CMA
BLAW
HRM
start with the maths first.
den the memorising one
can do during bus trips etc etc.
should be no problem bah! jiayous!

how could i get myself out of this vicious cycle? >.<

finally my driving lessons is coming
to an end and i'm going to book my test date
tomorrow!!!!!
yea yea! hope i can pass at first attempt. XD
hurhur. valentine's day coming
and no girls want to go out with me =(
sadddddd!
any girls care to date me please? T_T'''

i keep finding excuses for myself

!!!!
i know im so obsessed with my driving lessons
that i had not been attending
tutorials,
lectures &
worst of all, not attending my project meetings. >.<
i apologised. T_T
just let me chiong finish this week
and i can concentrate on my exams

no longer...