the pressure is killing me

arrrh! eat my own desserts for not being diligent T.T
i study those that never come out at all. faintsssssss!
hais shld've study all the topics carefully.
arrrhhh!!! why me so lazy. kelians arrr~~

i like this song!

hmmm...!
been thinking alot lately how to use my limited time
effectively and efficiently
to embark on doing constructive things
like going overseas
scuba diving
iceskating
swimming
reading n alot alot alot of other stuff...
and lastly EARNING ALOT OF MONEY in the SHORTEST POSSIBLE TIME!
cathay's fun but their pay is way too little
and its not very fulfilling.. as in i dont learn much from it.
i want to look for jobs that will open my eyes wide wide. >.<
ARGHS! the important thing is i have to learn to control my expenses T.T
i've been spending far too much le. >.<
i want to cut down on clubbing, movies expense and taxi expense!
these 3 expenses make up like 2/3of my expenses and are the most wasteful one.
i will watch all my movies at Cathay and i will give up clubbing unless im selling tickets! >.<
after i get my driving license i will be sharing the car with my bro!
at least petrol isnt that exp if i share with my bro. >.<
also have to invest in my personal computer and my laptop
might be getting PSP and rams!
in this way, chances of me staying at home
& not spending any money outside will be increased! ^^
and i discover i have been spending alot on food too,
but impossible to cut down on them.
i can't do without food! hurhur!
had been having severe sleeping disorder since worldcup
i need badly someone to take care of me!!!!

此刻没有任何东西能比这颗心还要真实。。

All or Nothing at All by O-Town
find this song from angelia aka hamster no. 2's blog.
heard it's an oldies.
depicts my feelings smhow, but not totally.
cuz was fighting against no one else i think? >.<
finally found something that are able
to describe feelings thats left cooped up in me these few days.
its really nice. listen to it. =)

All or Nothing at All

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's gotta give
A share in this relationship gets older, older

You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair

Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are time it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it
Then there's times you look at me
As thought I'm all that you could see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it

Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell

Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

Cuz you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
Nowhere inside for me in your life

Cuz I want it all
Or Nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never

Is it all
Or Nothing at all
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

its a sad song, but it shows strength in the hidden lines.
the courage to let the other know what you want and
be able to hang on to what you really want.
its meaningful =)

nowhere inside for me in your life.

i just want things to be like what it is last time
why is it so hard to do so?
is it too much to ask for?
i just can't help but to keep looking back at the past
sorry.

sleepless nights are getting longer and harder to endure

wahahaha! weeeeeeeet!
today suppose to go bof lecture de and give someone a call
but due to some unforeseen circumstances (being that my bro switch off my alarm clock)
i never wakeup and continue to sleep like a pig until afternoon lo. T_T
hahaha until xiaoyun mei mei~~~ my official xiao meis! cause she share the same hair as me~~!!! wahahhaha! u can touch and feel~ its exactly the same =X
oh ya! she called me and remind me of the kbox outing i promised the day before. >.<
den starting actually no guys gng so i dunwanna go de.
but in the end xiu xing, aka xinxin (*gorilla) wanted to go.
so i decided to go along!
hahah~ the girls wonder around orchard cineleisure for like a few hours
until reached the 2-7pm student package for kbox.
den i very bad, purposely arrive at 2pm cause dunwanna wander around and
i'm feeling extremely tired lo T.T
dono why.. slp so much still so tired. >.< becoming like a pig le larhs
hahah! den i went to LONG JOHN SILVER to buy my lunch before i went up to kbox
and guess who i saw!
priscillia! hahahaa! she eating longjohnsilver and is also going to kbox wif her classmates, celebrating some birthday i think.
haha crapped awhile and went up to join the girls in kbox!
there are angela, xiaoyun and hui hui nia!
the service dere really abit crappy. -.-''' when we sing until very high, always have ppl coming in to disturb lo. think the staff got a crush on one of the girls! XD
we sing until like 5+ den stupid xx and bevie come.
i seriously think there's something going on between them. rofl
and then we watch Ye Zi by ahsang until like we were watching movie lidat
some of the girls got teary eyes. >.<
den we were singing until so high when the person come and chase xx and bevie off
because dey didnt paid to come in lo. zzz!
but nvm, they both went dating afterwards! LOLLL!!!
haisss! but it didnt last long lar. something happened and bevie went back to us.
hmmm! den huihui went home and we guys went to fareast plaza to collect a dress.
hhahaah! but we decide to have dinner in one of the shop call Britain takeaway (i guess so) then the food was very nice! omg! n its a franchise that have jus
started!! haha den we behave like what a business student would do, analyse the business structure and think of bringing it back to ngee ann polytechnic. rofl!
stay tuned! u might see this franchise in our campus next semester!! ^^
hahaha den we talk crap there for quite long. like back to secondary sch de gan jue
thats what xiaoyun said! starting i still feel quite weird but think think abit
its quite true wors. its been long since i last enjoyed food like that.
buying food den sit infront of the stall and eat & crap. hahaha!
after that we went shopping at fareast! too bad alot of shops close le
xiaoyun collected her dress, bevin bought some accessories and i bought a new nike shoe! ^^ but angela didnt buy anything! >.<
hahah after that receive a phone call from xiuxing to ask me join them in balcony
angela and gang went out to say hi and den leave le. we had some drinks talk cock awhile and leave for home. lols! behind part is quite boring but nvm, had quite a good talk with xiuxing. XD ya thats abt it bah, although i could hve gone into details... but i too tired le. stil have to prepare presentations and study for tourism test. hurhur. mus go slp liao. *faintsss