ya! was finally back from genting.
hahaha! was back on tuesday
but only decided to blog today
need a few days to rest mah! XD
have not been eating well
and sleeping well there
dont know why.
this is the first time i have not been
stuffing myself to death and slping
dead like a log!
on avg i've been eating only 1 meal aday
and slping a few hrs only.
felt like a walking corpse. >.<
but ok larhs overall quite fun.
the rides there bored me seriously loh.
no kick! i wanna go taiwan!
hopefully i can conquer my 'fear' there.
its a freaking sickening 'fear'.
a stupid one. just a childhood trauma.
ya.. now i noe the feeling of being tog
but never had the sense of belonging.
felt as if im in a world of my own
and the person i longed to be my side
is not there.
its a dark feeling that consume my
heart, spirits and will every now and then.
i'm torned.
i can only have myself to be blamed for
things to have come to a stage like this.
but i aint gonna give up.
never.

somethings are never meant to be forsaken

blehs! have been tagged by evil sylvia!

Now i will tag
jasmine, rachel, nu er and shuyun!

TAGGED!!
Instructions:The tagged victim has to
come up with 8 different points
of their perfect lovers.
Specify the gender of the target.
Tag 4 victims to join this game and
leave a comment on their page
saying that they've been tagged.
If tagged the 2nd time,
there's no need to post again

The Perfect Lady Goes:
1) Love me for who i am
2) Gave me complete understanding
3) MUST be a bit crazy in the mind
4) able to think for herself
5) treats everyone around her with love,
respect and kindess
6) never question my love for her and
anything i do for her
7) had something that would make me feel
comfortable with her
8) always believe in me

yeapp! this is my 8perfectpoints!
not really hard to do,
it all jus came tru my mind
in a flow! weeeeeeet!

i think im beginning to understand why it hurts so much for you

started working in creative
at first i realise i've been
talking so much the whole day
that i dont really feel like saying any
more words after my work have ended
anyway im promoting mp3player
Creative Zen Vision: M
it was tough -.-''''
and i actually had a lot of pressure on me
Creative is really focusing alot on this
product and they really expect it to sell
very very very very well. >.<
and yet, the first day of the sales
is freaking disappointing.
i only sold 6units. -.-'''
dot dot dot dot dot dot dot
stunt!
was quite upset with myself T_T
why the sales is that bad when
we actually have a few thousand ppl
coming into the sales? -.-'''
i almost want to bang my
head only the wall n knock it down.
but i just cover it with a laugh,
acting as if nothing as happen.
i was feeling bad until the debrief came
my incharge explain that its not my fault
that i only sold 6 units, they had some sorta
expect things to turn out this way
on the first day. why?
because they figure out that the crowd
thats coming in would be coming for really
cheap bargains n probably they wouldnt
even look at a player that cost $599!
at first im not convince, was still sulking
my way back home and went straight
to bed, not uttering any words as well.
but this morning the sales is shocking!
sold 62 units! XD 10 times MORE!!! XD
i surely felt better this time
and i learn something.
sometimes it doesnt depend soley
on a person capability to decide the
result of a particular events/things.
it all depends on many other factors that
is unknown to us most of the times.
all we can do is to try our best everytime
in whateva things we do n not giving up.
i think the sales wouldnt be 10times more
if i had given up. XD wahahahhah
but of course this wouldnt be possible
without the help of the whole team
YOU guys rocks! jeff aka mitsuki rocks most!
wahahahahah!
am happy that there's a lot of pretty ladies
in my team! ^^
even my IC is pretty!
but she's married. >.<
rofls~
ya there's 1 more thing i want to mention.
i got really tired on the first day and i
dont feel like talking at all after the whole sales
surprisingly today i felt much better
even i have been talking for the whole day
i guess that the human body really gets
stronger and stronger with each hurdle
placed infront of it.
i believe thats its the same with the mind too
just grit your teeth, try ur best and get over it
you would really gained alot from it! XD
whahaha last day tml!
break 100unit sales, i get KFC! XD

moving on is the key

i know i have a bad tempers,
thats what everyone around me says
i'm trying to keep it down,
but there's always things that i couldnt
help but feel angry about them
and yet i can't.
i must control myself!!! >.<
yet in the attempt to keep my temper
under control i dont know what
are the things that i should be angry
with and what i shouldn't be.
zzz.
nvm i should be able to figure it out
in the near future. ^0^
i guess i just put up with everything now,
being too rushed would spoil the plans.
lets start by taking one step at a time!

total CRAP

did alot of things these few days
hurhur
but lazy to go rmb what i really did
maybe after this week bah
rmb got alot of funny stuff. >.<
hmmm.
i dont know will i be of much help this time
but i'll be there, always.

i'm afraid to cross the line, thats why.

arghs! scary! >.<
today almost i almost kill my laptop
hahaha was trying out the
recovery program and it jammed up
my windows and it cannot startup!
zzz i was wondering what is going to
happen to my pictures and other precious
files! my games~ zzz!
was fuming for abt 1hr + lidat
angry with how itchy my hand is
and i tried every possible method
but it all fails! T_T
just when i was about to give up on
all hopes~ arghs! sad!
den i decide to give it one last try
and yesh! i manage to restore windows
to the original settings! wahhahah
i'm a genius! XD
alrite i noe its boring =X
hahaa well! ytd i was playing badminton
in the afternoon. saw the sec sch student played
they were hell lot better than me. -.-'''
deproved a lot and i look on the court beside me
omG! even old uncles & aunties
can play better than me! T_T
sadddd!
thats what u get when u stopped playing
sports for a very very very long time.
nvm! just train back can le! wahahaha
den night went to kick soccer~
dribble into the goal post! XD
hocksoon suck! LOLL
alright i think i suck in sports now
even bball i dont think i noe how to
throw a ball correctly anymore now.
sighhhh!
nvm this holiday can play till i drop. ^0^
tomorrow would be distributing flyers
for Creative at Jurong Point & Bishan
interested parties pls come down and
get the flyers from me! wahahha XD
and i so want to eat fish & co!!!
can anyone bring me there? T_T

i'm serious this time.

Creative Fest 2006
March 17th-19th, Friday-Sunday
9am-8pm
Briefing/Training
will be on March 14th Tuesday, 9.am
may i know who is going and who is not?

fashion in singapore is really going down
i'm quite disgusted. >.<
went to suntec and orchard to shop
for my sports shoes, sunbian shopped
around for clothes as well.
arghs its horrible
went to many shops and the clothes
inside are all horrible. -.-'''
now even t-shirt in fleshimp is ugly.
sigh
nvm not as if im a fashion police. XD
i still manage to see 2 jackets that i like.
YEA! jackets! again! wahahah =X
i controlled myself and decided that
no more jacket for me le. yap at least for now
but i really like leh!
its red, strips, can be found in cineleisure lvl2
my birthday is coming....
so..... *evil grins!
wahahahaha!
those who see it would noe what to do le! XD
alright! today! i never get my sportshoes today
i shall run barefooted tml.
damn!

just this once.

finally gotten it all planned out!
all the activities for this holidays
i shall jog every morning and night
thats not too much i guess and i
think i shld be able to do it
cause i've been waking up like so damn early
in the morning everyday without anything to do!
and i can only lie in the bed. -.-''' zzz
wahahah!
yap! would be playing badminton on sat
and hopefully swimming on sunday
i didn't plan to go gym yet
as i think i shld spend 2 weeks or less
working out at home first consistently
before working out in a gym!
i wanted to get myself into shape for napfa
and its also partly for myself!
have not been doing any sports since
i left secondary school! T_T
basketball, soccer and saxophone
all the way until evening before going home
arghs! miss those days! >.<
so this time i swear i will pick them up agaiN!
upcoming events would be iceskating
& genting trip with T07 bah!
even sue anne is joining this time!
guess we all gonna have fun this time ^0^
who still wanna join in?!
cause tml xt and serene would be booking
the tickets at 4pm! >.<
while stocks last~
AND! i'm going to play something that i
once stopped cause i gotten a phobia to it
after an accident. T_T
think only a few ppl will know what is it
and yes! i gonna try it again!
mixed feelings now! arghs~!
i'm somehow quite into racing car now
those radio remote racing car
kervin jus left his racing car in my care
and i can play it anytime in the nearby carpark!
but the battery can only last awhile! >.<
ya since i gonna be jobless most of the time
this holidays i gonna save up quite alot
ahaha can sunbian help in my diet! XD
i think there's a good job coming its way now
only working for a few days but its gd money!
wahahha! alright thats all!
actually its jus a rough guide
just wanna post it up here
to remind myself and to get everyone
to watch me too.
and make sure i follow them!
weeeeeeeeeeeet!

finally, i'm making the best out of everyday

the more i tried not the think about it
the harder it hit back and it hurts
i think thats what it calls by repercussions

can it ever resolved.

today was rotting at home as well
but its more meaningful.
played racing car at the nearby carpark
den came home and begin searching
frantically for a job in the classified ads
nth good really comes out from it
but at least there's hope.
after that went to lot 1 and watch
Big Momma House 2 again instead
of Underworld Evolution.
what to do?
the parents of my goddaughter want to
watch it and i cant say no.
they pay for some of my tickets as well.
sigh, that concludes my whole day.
quite a nice day but i still can't cheer up.
i tried my best and i still didnt manage
to make it work.

i'm still thinking.

我有罪。。

i dont like to rot
i really need to find a job.
to keep myself busy!
hurhur
watched 2 movies in a row after exams!
Big Momma House 2 - Plaza Singapura
Final Destination 3 - Lot 1
big momma hse 2 really very funny
i was laughing my ass off that time. ^0^
xiaoting and serene said that they
could hear my laughter from the other side!
think its because im released from exams
and my mood is particularly good tat time!
after the movie i went home and rest awhile
before watchin FD3 again. >.<
not really good
prefer FD 1 & 2
yesh! movie marathon!
was dead beat by the time i reach home
and i fainted again on the floor! XD
alright i still have a few movies to finished
Pink Panther
Underworld: Evolution
Nanny Mcphee
Date Movie
and 1 Korean love show!
mood not really good bah now
sigh

believe me just this once

tomorrow is the last paper le
hurhur
earlier on i do have a lot of plans for holiday
but now when holiday is pulling in
i'm not sure whether it's possible
to finish everything. sigh!
nvm, just finish everything one by one
like nothing to blog
today de entry quite fei arh >.<
continue to study cma le! jiayous!

i hope you could be fair to me for just this once.