i shouldn't have gave you up,
not once but twice.
i shouldnt have hurt you,
not once but twice.

if only i could really understand what ck
and what you have been telling me in the past
maybe things wont come to this stage
and i wont have to feel so empty now.

why only when things came to such a stage
will i realise my mistakes
and came to know that
perhaps it was too late.

i knew the damage has been done,
though we aint friends anymore,
i still hope that you're doing fine
and one day, miracle might just happen..

...for us to meet again

Labels: hopes and miracles to happen

bwah!
ytd almost short $200 !
when i said almost it's really
ALMOST!

its like i have signed my docket,
signed the shortage form
photocopy 2 side, cc to boss.. etc etc (if anyone watched Just Follow Law)
just waiting for cab to arrived before i go

then suddenly i decided to recount my credit card slips again
i just thought i'm doing myself a last favour by recounting again
before i wasted half of my week pay in cathay.
and miracle happens! ^^

i still can recall the figure by heart.
it was 3217.94
shorttage of 200
and then when i recounted it was 3417.94!

0mG! my heart was like F1 Formula racing car zooming for its last lap
i immediatetly get huiwen to rechecked again for me.
she counted wrongly on the first time. stupid girl!
and then she dont allow me to count for myself! T_T

feel like strangling her that instance! GRRRR
she counted again and slowly this time. 3417.94!!!
i was so excited that i almost hug her,
seriously my heart is almost popping out.

i din even feel anything much when i knew i shortage
but when i knew there's hope
i went crazy!
wahahaha!

finally victor, the GM of cathay recounted again
and then this time it was exact. phew!
all these running up and down,
reopening and check of lvl 1 again! >.<

if only he got it right on the first time!
damn him for misreading my credit card slips
BUT
wahahaha! at least this taught me
God and Ladyluck wont give up on people who trys hard! ^^

hais!
however after i got so happy
my mood only gets down on the way home.
i discover a dead pixel on my PSP!

... fuck.
seriously bad luck seems to follow me since the starting of the year
T_T i spent so much taking care of this PSP of mine
but turned out that it have a faulty LCD screen that is out of my control. zzz

worst still, mine was export version and no guarantee covered in SG!!!
~!@#$%^&*&&$X%#^$^&%
all i can hope for is my uncle working at sony
could help me replaced it. T_T

if not i have a few other options
1) bug my cousin who sold me that to replace another set
2) get huishan/zen to fly from australia,
bring the PSP back home, change it and then send to me again. (sounds bloody stupid)

i'm not gonna try my 2nd option for sure. >.<
the last option is to keep running the stuckpixel fixer video
or just to wait for it to disappear on its own. T_T
hmmmph! but no matter what!

i'm not giving up! weeeeeeeeeeet!

we immediately get Victor, the GM to recount again!

Labels: keep holding on.

arghs! 13.5 hours today at Cathay!
faintsss!
shortage $3 dollars
totally no link.

will be working 11 hours for more than 4 days this week
i don't know how am i going to survive it.
wonder if i have the strength to exercise?
crappp. i'm totally fucked!

maybe the only one thing i regretted
abt our r/s is i didnt manage to tell you how much i love you
when i really do.
damn this ego of mine! >.<

Labels: nightingale's melody

arrrr!!!
i want a umd disc! T.T
so i can start playing my PSP!
sigh!

the taiwan trip make me so broke
hold up so much of my cash
cant anyhow spend. >.<
i never try scrimping so much in my life

i'm fortunate to have parents that can give me a comfortable life.
but thats why i'm such a spendthrift! >.<
...... excuses~~
i'm feeling so miserable right now without money! T.T

cathay is cutting down on hours
meaning i wont be earning that much nxt week!
i can only expect things to get worst
really time for a new job. >.<

i dont know why it feels nice to talk to you
and i don't know why i can only talk to you now.
it seems awkward for me to talk to other girls
except for u.

it doesn't feels right
and it so not like me.
i'm losing all my lady luck?!!
it's just so not worth it for you. XD

Labels: Avril Lavigne - Holding On

today work is crazy!
really insane!
11 hours of level 1 is really freaking scary,
lucky at the end of the day no shortage.

the work at cathay is getting boring every single day
and im getting more tired with every passing days.
looking at how other of my polymates are getting on with life
really make me T_T

why all guys have to serve NS?
especially when NS doesn't make 'man' out of 'boys' anymore
the guys i seen that came out from army
are no better than they were in the past.

and it doesnt feel good to see another failed r/s
worst still,
its the r/s of the parents of my god-daughter. zzZ
he really outdone himself this time

i have nothing except disgust for things he said and done.
flabbergasted and i really can't speak up for him anymore.
i dont think he really realise his mistakes,
sigh. all guys are the same when it comes to admiting their mistakes

excuses and more excuses
i think i'm no better than that too.
crap!
arghs!!!

coping up at cathay whole week
really left me with no time for other things.
no mood no energy and also dont bother to talk much to other ppl.
arghs i wanna get outt of cathay!

Taiwan Taiwan here i come!

Labels: frustrated

i should have know better that this 'love' of mine
is nothing more than possessiveness and selfishness.
thats just all about it.

since everyone is moving on,
i dont see the point of me holding on to
those memories every now and then.

flames to dust
lovers to friends.

Labels: changes for the better

bwahhh! today extend to 11pm at cathay! hmmm
think would be hitting over 50 hours this week
yet only earning 240 plus this week! >.<
i can earn so much more in factory and other place. =/
sigh. i want a different job !

been having cold everyday these few weeks
seriously lacking in vitamin C. T_T
have to eat more oranges
exercise more~
swimming this saturday!

got my pearl white psp and my headphone
but still lack the damn umd disc so cant play anything. arghs!
and what's with the psp craze?
everyone in cathay is buying psp now?
seems that im leading the craze.
crap, psp existed a few thousand years ago,
why now? -.-'''

oh ya have i told anyone that my eyesight is worsening?
got a new specs but dont think anyone realise except wenling
she is exceptioally observant. =/
faints !

wow! finished downloading Lego Star Wars II and Gurumin! yea!
but cant play.
...
...fark!

Labels: Yui for Amane Kaoru

today wokeup at the wrong side of the bed
was freaking irritated and frustrated by almost everything.
even collegues could tell from the look i bring to work.
and scolded nanee off over the walkie.

something seems to be bloody wrong with me
but couldn't describe it
don't feel like talking to anyone at all.
arghs.
lucky ppl are nice enuff to treat me as it is. >.<

i need lotsa sleep!