trapped between the past and the present
i dont seem to recognise myself anymore,
torned.

its kinda funny that now
i dont really wish to board to plane and go off to hongkong.
the thought of not being able to do my last duty as a grandson
hurts and bring my heart down terribly.

it's really heavy
but i know things couldn't be helped.
sigh.
this is a farking bad year for me.

what's even more funy is that
at this instance i could really find no one to talked to,
those ppl who were dere for me in the past,
to lend a listening ear
are not there anymore.

i wish i could understand and intepret things correctly in the past
maybe she will still be there listening to me
and we will still be bickering tru the whole night
even if it's on msn.

now even how much i missed her voice
and the way she scolds me 'bai jia zi'
i know i can't and i won't dial her numbers anymore,
cause things will never be the same again.

it sucks having to stay in the past,
am still trying to move on.
i dont know how long will it takes for me
to really forget every little things abt you.

but i will still convince myself to do so,
cause i know it will make both of us happy in this way...
off to hongkong!!!